AH :D today had sports heats :D YAY :D ran in 4x100m relay. grouped with Yvette , Nicole and Samantha. :D it was really fun (: in the end , came in third. hope that will qualify for sports day (: OMG , exams start like next week. ): im super super scared. i wna do really well. jiayou deb :D YOU CAN DO IT!


/I put my trust in you Lord.
You fight the world for me.

You'll never undrstand

To you.
what the fuck is your fucking problem. you don't even tell me anything how am i supposed to know. you think i god ah. whats your problem , firstly i did not even do anything to you. when i talk to you , you talk to me like i'm your dog and i owe you my life or something. please lah , can respect other people anot.whats your problem , you and the fucking mood swing of yours. don't even know why the fuck you not happy. i can swear i never ever treat you like that before lor. and i know that i tell you everything all my feelings everything , do you even do that. ask yourself lah k. and i already asked you to walk with us , then you and your weirdness suddenly walk behind. then i even look back and waited . please lah , get your facts right can. your fucking fucking fucking childish attitude and character. get a live lah please. you think you that great uh. and you think everyone want to see that qian bian face of yours ah. don't always think you're in the right lah k. and a lot of people already tell me that i give in to you too much that you don't even care. think about it lah k. I've already tried my best and i wont lie cause its true that i really really tried and cared. but you , you did the opposite.i always give in to you lah please. but now i've decided not to cause you don't even care. you can think all you like lah k . but i can honestly say that i really treasured this friendship a lot a lot a lot . but you didn't really seem to .

DEBORAH IS HAPPY :D !
yesterday after tuition ,Terese and me went to meet Sam then we went boat quay for a flea market. by the time we reached there it was really late. but im glad that I've gotten my camera :D though there was another idiotic shop there that made me really pissed. first time going out that late at night and to that place(: i really really enjoyed myself :D though Terese and i weren't feeling well. hope that we can go out more :D TEH&SAM[L] ohshit, tomorrow there's pe and i need to run 2.4km. can die lah.
will post pics soon (:

To you:
whats your damn problem, why don't you just search yourself before saying about others. why is your mouth so darn big. you don't even know anything or understand anything lah. everything also you right , why must you read so much into it. whats your problem, why are you such an attention seeker. can you stop acting and get a live lah. Gosh.

With my fingers crossed

Today's MONDAY , and i hate mondays it spoils my holiday mood.
this month is really tiring and i had alot alot to think about and difficult decisions to make ): i hope that all this will end asap. today i send a message to someone , haven't gotten the reply but i'll be ok with the decision made. pe is like really really boring . all we do is run , and i HATE running.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABI AND MAT ! :D i love you both tons and tons :D God bless ! (:

Keep the faith alive

Yesterday i got home really late from abi and mat's birthday party. it was better than last year (: but in the end, i fell sick. had fever and my flu came back. Yesterday saw mr nizam, took a picture with him. then my parents came to fetch me cause i sick. then no time to send pic so he send by text. he say dont give up on netball but in the next message , something he said struck me really hard its the part that he say dont give up on netball and he say he train me so hard only to now that i'm a quitter. really hurtful though. so i've decided to reconsider joining back and talk to miss neo . if can i would like to join back but i need to take a break first cause i actually didn't want to quit at all.


Mr.Nizam (:


YUSHAN(L)



God give me the strength and the courage.

i thank God for all that i have.

today woke up super early cause tuition was at 10am. met jeanette , yiling and terese at shcool there. i'm feeling really bored and very tired. later still going for abi and mat's birthday party. hope it will be fun.
ILOVE BIGBANG :D :D

im still sick ): yesterday didn't go to school cause i sort of lost my voice, had really bad sore throat and had fever. ): and had flu , dont know who go pass to me. really hard to breathe sia, then very hard to sleep also. today woke up, felt super tired. sianz, today had math and science test. its like super super hard. for math , it was a re-test. and each time re-test, its even harder. gosh. i really need to study already ): three weeks more to mid year ): God help me . after school, practice for pupil led. last thing I'm gonna do with the team. miss you all. but OMGEE lah O: I'm gonna be right in the middle ): today adelia kissed my on my head :D shock me sia. LOL. but we ain't les , i can assure you 100%. (: the other day was yiling on my cheek, weird people.

GOOD FRIENDS ALWAYS :D ILOVEYOU BOTH !
GAH D: im having really bad sore throat and im losing my voice ): i dont want my throat to hurt cause its like really pain ): bought a pack of strepsils suppoused to take one in two to three hours but then , i only realised it after taking three in like half an hour or maybe fourty-five minutes. had flu while in class and it was super uncomfortable. had to keep asking for tissue. i hate being sick ):
ADELIA , i know something that happened today :D credits to cheryl and me (:
ILOVEYOU ADELA and fat albert :D he rocks more than you do. hehe (:

paint the colours on the sky

dear you,
forgive me if i was lifeless and all.
SATURDAY: met jeanette and yiling then went to waterloo street for a flea market. we all bought two things :D i dont know why but i dont seem to be able to find my money ): its like im losing them one by one. after that, went to tampines mall then went for tuition :D i dont know why but every week , i say a word which makes them remember me for . D: got to watch my words :O then after that , i went to tampines one with my parents, second brother and my aunite :D then went for dinner at bedok then went to my ahmah house (:
SUNDAY: went to church with my parents and second brother :D then went to parkway until super late.
TODAY : OMGEE lah D: had NAPFA today. can die cans D: i feel like i am a failure ): did really bad to me. but tried my best, i think. i think im just cheating myself lah D: 2B ILUVU :D

hi (: today went out with Jeanette, Terese and Cheryl (L).
went to town area. didn't even buy anything , feel uneasy but ok. my throat hurts and i think i'm gna lose my voice. D: my back was like super pain and acheing ):
before all that , went to Blue Lobster at siglap to celebrate my grandfather's birthiday. HAPPY 76th BIRTHDAY KONGKONG ! ILOVEYOU (: the manager there was super funny lah. he kept joking with us. yesterday after talking to miss kheng, i think that i've gotten my answer already. thanks miss kheng (: thanks to those who were there through this tough part of my life. i thank God i got you all. (:
To vanessa:
thanks for writing what you wrote on your blog (:
i'll also be here for you (:

today school was very boring to me. i dont know why even if i laugh and smile, i dont feel happy then no mood. ): had stupid d&t but then shaveta sang a stupid song about this person and made me laugh. but i still dont feel happy or what. then in class my mind just went blank and i became super quiet. dont know why.
I'm
tired.
sad.
speechless.
confused.
troubled.
thanks to those who comforted me and lend me a listening ear.

hi(: today school was quite okay. after school, went to mac to eat with jeanette,terese and jocelyn. after that, we all went home. so i walked to the bus stop with jeanette and terese. today was a rather boring day. first training that i never go for since i quited. feeling really really weird and its like something is missing in my life. i really miss you all. now watching they kiss again :D so happy. but gna stop soon cause i got to do art. :D havn't had my dinner yet cause not hungry. i miss cheryl and adelia ~ ): love you both dearly , one my bestfr and the other my superduperuper good friend. to you both, JIAYOU for netball!

its time to make decision

sigh. today went to school. had pe , heng dont need run 2.4km. but sometimes i dont know why but i just feel like running. but its never during netball and pe. i really dont know why. anyway, im now rushing to post cause my daddy coming home soon already and i got tuition. ): today school ended really late ): cause of AT but its the last time i got to stay back for this (: i wna watch they kiss again but now no time le ): tomorrow there's netball. i dont know what to do. i asked for more time to think and its by tomorrow. im so gna miss it. sigh , this year so far hasn't really been good and all. always sick and missing class. but this year im really glad to be in 2B :D its a really fun class , its much better than 1C, really thank God i got into this class. the people here are like really AWESOME :D ILOVE2B'09 ! (: lets all strive hard to do well. (: later gna get nice sweets to eat :D im sure my two brothers especially my second brother is gna ask for it. (:

hello :D today went to church in the morining (: was super tired and super hungry the whole time sia. Yesterday's tuition was super funny (: i wanted to say what went wrong but ended up saying what wang wong . lol /: then mr chia repeat then everyne laugh like crazy D: haha. but it was really funny. Yesterday was the best tuition class ever (: now im watching They kiss again :D and sort of doing my art work. sigh , friday was a SUPER saddening day for me. i told miss neo that im quitting netball, i REALLY dont want to but for my health and studies, i got to give it up. anyway, i dont think alot of them heard me. i think i got to say it again ): quitting is a really hard choice for me and it really breaks my heart.It really wasn't easy for me when i see you all, all i wna do is just cry. i will really miss being a team with you all. especially when all my good friends and my bestfr is in it. I WILL MISS YOU GUYS :D I LOVE YOU ALL. and i am sorry. i hope that we will continue to be as close as ever and will still be able to be together. but one last thing is that i will do pupil led with you all :D JIAYOU . deb love shs netballers!

Just got home not long ago. sigh, i dont know why but these few days i have really been thinking alot. nothing was easy for me. ): today mr.lim came back :D :D when my class saw him, everyone was like screaming in joy (: it seems that we all really like him, cause he is super funny lah :D then the whole time he was smilling and laughing for like ten mintues cause he came in like super late. then we were like why you never come then we never get to learn anything. then he promised us saying he will never be absent again. LOL lah. random. (: but he is a very nice teacher though :D haha. after school had chapel (: sians , tomorrow chinese lesson need go up and talk about a topic. i scared ): God help me! im so sad now hardly any time to watch my dramas ): sigh , and tomorrow is gna be a very hard day for me. im gna feel very sad after i've said what i need to say to the netball team. ILOVEYOU ALL ! dont ever forget that. DEB ♥ NETBALLERS ! :3

HI D:

Today had training , actually , we didn't really train. we just watched the video of the nationals match. last training ): today im so glad that could bond with the netballers :D :D hehe. my ankle a bit swollen ): thenmy dear bestfr fell down /: take care :D iloveyou (: i was super tired this morning. i dont really have anything to say cause today i cant seem to remember anything. but during d&t , very funny. with shaveta , yvette and huiwen :D laugh until stomach pain. /: now talking to rachel and chomel :D haha. really CRAZY people. i wanna eat pizza hut again :D haha. got to go do english (: NETBALLERS (L)! (: